That’s exactly how I feel. I always felt different than the others, but couldn’t tell what was « wrong » with me. It was by pure chance that I started to look seriously at autism a few months ago, and it offers a solid explanation to … my whole life indeed.
I don’t know « by how much » I am autistic (or even if I am really autistic to begin with), but reading about the insecurities, explanations, and solutions from autistic people helped me a lot to manage situations that were very difficult to handle in the past (and more generally, not being afraid to do things differently, which was difficult when I was not admitting that I am different, and that is not a problem at all).
Well, Analogue does not communicate that much. They promised a lot of features but did not deliver all of them yet (even 2 years after the Pocket release). It’s also difficult to buy their products, which attract the greed of the scalpers. And they generally rely on pre-orders, meaning you pay everything upfront 1 year in advance (tough this seems to change a bit, they have in stock the Pocket they sell now).
Amazing hardware but poor communication, software (very slow to get any update), and frustrating to buy from.
While I can understand the general « mood » about Analogue, I really love my Pocket, and I almost had all the features I wanted day one, so I do not complain.